I represent Everything You Fear - Dedicated to Adrian Piper - Here Comes A Wicked Witch of East

Supermarket
2006-present

Target 1
Get off the bus, walk to soho, feet hurt badly, try to walk normally, try to look in pain, keep walking in a certain speed. Not too fast, not too slow.

Go inside the supermarket, grab a basket, walk around, not too big, not too small, try to calm down, try to find the shelves with tins. Grab a couple of tinned good, walk around again, try not to look suspicious, grab something else, go back to the shelves with the tins, take out the ones prepared, place them. Take photographs, getting very nervous, about to walk away, realise putting the ones for another supermarket, walk back, start panicking, try not to panic, swap the tins, take photograph, walk towards the cashier... cont.

Target 2
Walk backwards, not backwards, walk back to where the last bus stop is, feet hurt, wondering about the way to walk, over conscious, try to calm down. Go inside the supermarket, see the size of it, very VERY small, walk past the entrance, forget to grab a basket, go back. Count the numbers of staff, probably about 7 including the cashiers, count the number of customers, probably three including myself. Walk around, feel closefobic, find the shelf with tinned food, so small, so little selections, right in the middle of the shop, see other people’s face behind. Walk around again, feel a man coming towards me, feel the heart beating fast, getting nervous, hear him saying, “Can I help you at all, ma’m?”... cont.

Target 3
cont... Find the shelves with tinned food, so many people trying to push each others, grab a couple of tinned food, walk around again. Feel a man staring at me, start getting paranoid again, about the wig, about shoes, about everything around.  Try to calm down.

Walk back to the shelf, place the ones already prepared, take photographs, see a fat lady looking at me, getting panicky, try to calm down, hear the heart beating fast, do nothing but take a photograph, walk away quickly.

Getting in a queue, take off the coat, stay in the queue, try to calm down, look straight forward, hear a man saying, “Can you check these out, please?” behind the shelves, stay in the queue, stay there for 10 min, getting nervous, hoping nobody says anything, pay for the tinned food, leave the store.... cont.

Target 4
cont...Leave the section, walk towards the cashier, see a young staff smiling at me, start to get paranoid about the wig falling back, making my forehead looking so un-natural. Maybe he’s thinking “Your wig’s slipping off, Maa’m”. Ignore the stupid thought, try smiling back to him, queue up to pay for the tinned food, pay for them, take the elevator back up to the ground floor, walk towards the exit.

Walk out of the store, see a group of young girls looking at my socks, feel paranoid about everything, not really everything, almost everything, about the socks, about the wig, about the rucksack. Feel a little disappointed, about not being caught, about not being stopped by the security guard... cont.